Adaptation.

I have to do it.
Feel hurt no more.
it's hard, but no harm trying... Go.

anyway, I Love You.

Lots of things happening for the past few weeks. All I can say is that, I've learnt quite alot. But still, learning and applying is another thing. Constant reminders are needed to make sure, or try to make sure that you will not repeat the mistake again.

Time.

Time is needed for the change to be made. At the mean time, the same mistake might be repeated. Can one have that tolerance to do that? Or am I running out of chance?

Sometimes, mistakes made are forever there. Forgiveness doesn't mean you forget about that mistake that someone had made and cause you all that hurt. It's more of an acceptance of that mistake and love the person for who they are.

Is it all over again? Or will it come to an end?
Don't let things be the latter I hope.

Let's just hope that I can move on.



It's all my fault.

Fun day. :D

We painted a big radio banner today! It will most probably be used for the making of anouncements on monday or tuesday only. :(

When there's more work to do, I tend to be more slack, then work to death later. :S



Worrying doesn't help, but I do it all the time.

I hate you. -.- Like seriously.

Interviews, making the impression, knowing your competitors, thinking about giving up and why am I trying so hard for things which seemed to be so impossible.

Am I really aiming high to get disappointment?

Regrets. Regrets. Regrets.

All those times for the camp, preparing for it, trying to make the impression again.

Impression. Impression. Impression.

There's 23 people in total who applied for house, including me who switched last min.
15 would be selected, 8 would be kicked out.
I'll be lucky if i can get in.
Please don't let me work under her. I would rather die man.

Let me have it. Let me take up the job instead. Let me really try out something new, let me go beyond my limits. Let me try.

I have never wanted anything this badly. heh.

Hope. I can only hope then, since my interview was screwed. 'Another she' spoke well too.
15/23. 15/23.
I don't to be the 8s.
I want to belong somewhere in there.



By the way, I'm really sorry for today. I appreciated very much on what you've done. Thanks.

Camp was fine. :)


Hope that I can get what I want from it.



Don't give your all with things you are still unsure, be prepared for the worst at all times. :)

Don't you just hate it when some people thought that they understand you but they didn't?
:O

Sometimes, msg are hard to get across.


All out now. :) Thank you again!

9th of march, tuesday.


Totally, some things are best to not know at all.
Why do they have to look so disgusted.
Worse part, I'm actually affected by it.

No point saying that my day sucked everytime when this kind of shit always happened.

I hope to say 'whatever' and really move on.
But I can't.
I really can't.

Sometimes, having someone who understands you and to talk to is really hard.
Sometimes, you only have yourself.

Most of the time, it's a waste of time to wait.
Empty promises, Fake reassurences are too hard to take.

Sometimes, it's best to get hurt at one go with the truth.

Don't know where I'm heading. Have been hoping that it will turn out to be good.



Sometimes, being busy is just an excuse.

mood: ignored.



Heard there's this cheering thingy. Heck, didnt go. -.-


Stupid day.